Yes, it’s one of those days again. I re-read my manuals, delved into my conscience and figured out what I should do.
It’s 13 months ago that I had my stomach surgery and almost 8 months since I really lost weight. Lacking the will to make a change has bothered me for some time now, while giving advice to others [you know who you are] never bothered me at all.
I’ve felt lousy for the last couple of months, I haven’t said so, [I'm still good at masquerading feelings] but felt it anyway.
Things have to change, I need to loose weight otherwise my new pants will not fit me or the buttons will pop off my new shirts. So today a new start of the weight-loss program will start. I know writing it down is easy, but there are several people nearby who will check up on me in case I fall back in old habits.
We all know bad habits die hard and the road to hell is paved with good intentions, but I just have to give it another try.
UPDATE: I was quite surprised when I stepped on my scales and was only 200 grams heavier then the last time in May. Just for the record: 172.8 kg BMI 43.2
Filed under: BMI, Daily life, Health, Lapband, Weight Loss
I know it’s gotta be hard. Those I’ve known to succeed surrounded themselves with people who encouraged them 24/7. I sure hope you have that!
Steve, I’m fortunate to have friends and family nearby, and even the friends who live thousands of miles away play major part in my life.
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Good luck Peter. Feel bad I haven’t been around much. Work has been a disaster and in fact I resigned back in February (after 10 years). Start a new job with Tiffany & Co on Monday so hopefully I’ll get back on track again! Stick with it; it will be worth it!
I’m sure you get back on track, Tiffany is a big step up from W&T.
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Peter, thanks for sharing this most personal confession. From your writing it appears that you really want to make it work this time. The thing is:
You have to want it to happen. Commitment is crucial.
You have to set aside any negative old programs that may be running through you mind.
You have to focus on healing YOU, not for anyone else, but just for you.
You have to know that there are anonymous people out here who’s been touched by you in some way and want you to get your life and health back on track.
Love and prayers ascend for continued strength to see you to your goal.
Thanks Wayne, sending you good vibes back.
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Do it, Peter.
Your life depends on it, so keep on discovering and publishing your honesty. Those of us who know you don’t depend on the facade anyway. We know better.
Els has the common sense in this matter, so do what she tells you.
I’ve been through enough family crises to know that there’s always one who has sense and conviction – who has the courage to lead and the devotion to love – and I figure that’s Els. Let her guide you to a better place, until you can take over on your own.
She loves you, and I love her for that.
Josh